Please be okay

I know you're strong and you think i'm a miracle amibg miracles, but i wouldn't be me today if it wasn't for God :) you're strong i gotta give it to you, but you're not superman, you don't have kryptonite; you're not iron man, you're not made of steel and deep down inside you know you're just a boy, i don't want to see you get hurt, i only want what you can give, and that's good enough for me..

I know there might not be a place in your heart for me, but at least i'm your friend.. i'm satisfied with that much. And of all the times we spent together, i hope you understand that even if things couldn't work out between us, i hope we still stay friends.

We share the same background, so i know what you think... i've been through the same. We're not that different. I just wish you could see my heart, i pray and i will pray hard for you, cause i want you to get what you deserve. Someone who knows how to treasure you. I can't just say i'll stay faithful as your friend forever, cause words don't mean anything without action.. let me prove it :)

I wish

Been a darn ling time since my last post.... i think i kinda like someone? I'm never telling who it is though muahahahaha xD oh yeah...

I wish you'de just let him go... it's bad enough that he fell heads over heels for you and got drunk! Please! Why can't you see that he likes you? Even if you don't like him back at least tell it to his face not ignore him and flee whenever you sse him..that's just crap!

I wish i could tell you how much you mean to me, but really there's no point anymore....i'm not THE girl.... you told me to give up on you through drunkeness...but do you really think i can? After eveything you told me? Hella NO!!

I really don't know what to think anymore... but i hoped that you would see...ir look at me just for once </3

woahhhhh, been such a long time since i updated my blog :s well, youth camp has been awesome! rearry learned so much, though it took me some time to apply it, but it's a work in progress!! hahaha hey anyways! 
well, it's 2 people's birthday today, but hey seperate posts would be a waste of my time

dear schoolmate,
i ain't much of a friend, more like an acquaintance, but you ruined that a long time ago, you should be lucky on your birthday today! but, i kinda feel sorry that my best friend which you thought was your bestfriend too is gonna celebrate my birthday in LM today with me rather than head over to your house and celebrate yours on your actual birthday xD too bad for you, but you brought this on yourself xD

Dear Bry,
hahaha, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!! i posted that on facebook but prolly no ones ever gonna check my blog so yeah :s hahahaha happy birthday really, hanks for everything, really should thank your mom you're here...you've been a blessing and you know that! :D haha

shortest post ever,just to say happy birthday haha i'm done here see ya'll next time xD

weirdness, randomness and seriousness

RANDOMNESS! i think my brother is in love :O how do i know? i stalked his facebook and his blog xD WOOPIEEEEE!! sorry i'm a stalker bro :)) but how else am i gonna find out bout this? haha you should've told me! then i can tell you mine awwww...too bad then :/ anyways.... BE A MAN!! YOU MUST BE SWIFT AS A COURSING RIVER BE A MAN! WITH ALL THE STRENGTH OF A GREAT TYPHOON!! WHAT?! this IS called randomness isn't it? i know i'm awesome :D:D:D

WEIRDNESS! eeeyerrr, i think i kinda like someone? i don't know! but who cares? and yeah, i don't really hate my mom anymore i guess, now it's kinda more like a mutual anger thing.. mad at her mostly, but not hatred? beyond madness but not hatred? i dunno...well thank you Bryan, i know i can call or text you when i need to you told me that like a dozen times already xD haha just kidding! i don't need anyone to talk to for the moment :)) i'm happy go lucky? not really, if i was i wouldn't deactivate my facebook would i?

SERIOUSNESS!err yeah, i kinda deactivated my facebook? i kept my twitter though..yeah something came up and i.. .well, let's say i don't want to see facebook for a while..or anyone in facebook..all those emo posts by emo friends and all, i'll miss them, and someone actually misses my frequent and mist random updates! haha well thanks then! but all those things wouldn't matter now.. i've been emo for far too long i'm not making my blog more emo thn it already is....i WILL be back on facebook, just let me figure and sort some things out and you'll see my most random, frequent, annoying, long updates :3 yesh i know! I WILL BE BACK #MUAHAHAHAH

EXTRA-SERIOUSNESS! seriously?! i didn't think you would end up like that! knew you would somehow get bad but i didn't imagine this! migosh! what's happened to you? what happened to the girl who sings 'just the way you are' at the most random times ever? the one who sleptover at my house once, the one whom i had random convos once! Gosh! i missed that girl! i'll pray hard for you! God bless! take care kkays?!!? i really wish there was something i can help but even i'm in trouble now, and i can't tell anyone! so the best i can do for you now is call you and talk :( sorry bout that! but please be okay, please take care o yourself, there are other people out there who care about you!! me & Jas & our CG & Bry for instance! take care of yourself! don't let us worry and regret our whole lives that we didn't keep you and made you stay here in our church where we could always watch over you! but remember this! Jesus will always guard you, protect you and comfort you at any time! take care :)

well that's it for today i guess :x no facebook for me for now :s miss me already? awhhh i have twitter! and 2 working phones though one is out of battery right now.....but heck you can still call me up xD hahah well see ya!

FIRETRUCK YOU!

don't even bother trying! in fact, don't even try to sabotaj that one speck of respect i STILL have for you. i'm IN  RAGE, YES! IN 1 WHOLE YEAR I HAVE NEVER BEEN THIS MAD!! NOT WHEN I GOT THAT FREAKING WARNING LETTER, NOT WHEN I GOT IN TROUBLE IN SCHOOL WITH THOSE TEACHERS! NOT BETWEEN THE FIGHTS I HAD WITH MY BEST FRIEND, AND CERTAINLY NOT EVEN CLOSE TO THAT ONE PERIOD OF TIME I WAS BULLIED..NO! NOT EVEN IN RAGE ENOUGH TO TYPE IT OUT ON MY BLOG! CONGRATULATIONS! YOU JUST BOUGHT YOURSELF A PLACE ON MY BLOG!== 

why do i even bother ==  what does that BBQ party have anything to do with me anyway?! count your budget properly when you're trying to host a stupid party like this for other people, it's not even you hosting it! you bought everything for them at least get the budget back you freaking idiot! you just cost me my whole plan for the rest of the month, not to mention my offerings, lunch and dinner money and my savings i was planning to use for my friends birthday! THANKS ALOT YOU! THAT MADE MY DAY == FIREETRUUUCKKK!!!!! get the hell outta my sight you freak! you better not mess up youth camp! or realy don't even say that one speck...you're losing that one DROP of respect i have for you!!

THANKS ALOT! 
#PLANSPOILER
#MONEYCHEATER
#LIAR
#BEEYATCH!

shyt this i'm spamming horror movies! because looking at faces that cause nightmares! MIGHT SOMEHOW BE BETTER THAN LOOKING AT YOURS!

ALIVE

been a bit depressed lately to even crawl up here to update this blog..OOPS
don't want to think back on what you guys missed, well if you know me and i trust you enough, i already told you what happened on the streets and on the bridge, done with that story..NO MORE THINKING!

under some circumstances, i realised and know alot about myself in the past few weeks.. to be honest i'm not the best person to be friends with but thank you if you are =) i realised that no matter what happens, Jesus will really always be there...He always did, always has and always will =)

well, enough with the sad parts, PMR coming up i can't afford to be sad anymore i guess...sigh, well even if i'm not fine *fake a really convincing smile* i'm fine =) and will always be :D:D:D:D hahaha xD

fought with my mom again...sigh, no dinner again tonight...OOPS...well i'm alive and well, His spirit lives within me =)

leave me

i don't want to hear a single soul tell me they would never leave me when they don't mean it at all.... all i knew my whole life is that those are all lies... you don't mean it! none of you meant it..

when you promised me you would never leave me, what were you thinking?  yeah, the original Letitia Liew Hew Yan is a great disappointment to everyone.  why are you even talking to me anyway?  amusement? or just someone to kill time for you? what am i to you anyway? NOT WORTH IT! 

i've had people coming in and out into my life, i don't want you to be one of them too..you mean a lot to me, and now you're gone...you may say you're not, but i know the truth..everything's gone,whatever we used to share is gone since the text...and it's not coming back again is it? it's not..is it? tell me would ya?

i used to think this could last longer, but it couldn't...you were like him, when i decided to tell, everything ended there :( it's nothing special between us..not like him..but even as a friend you told me you would never leave me, but you still did..yeah..

to M, every morning you have to ruin everything, but still i promised someone i would take care of myself, even though the person is gone, the promise lives, i would take care of myself...i'm not gonna let you ruin it again, i've been living under fear for far too long i guess..

announcement

i'm gonna get a part time job for this holiday :/ OOPS...someone's not gonna like this idea i guess...LOL just text me if you need to know more :(