DAAAYUUMM

pretending like i'm okay, acting like there's nothing wrong. but you know don't you? that everything is wrong... everything....

what happened to the old Letty that i used to love? well, she's being murdered... even right now this second... she's slowly dying inside.. Letty is dying..and yet she's still holding on to God for hope, her last source of life...

it hurts, it hurts so bad....physically, emotionally...it hurts...i can't see, i can't feel...where was the old Letty? who saw things the way they are? and the Letty, who believed that everyone's an angel inside? the Letty that believed in promises...the Letty who once loved everything? i'm sorry, but she died

dilemmas all over again

kinda going through a hard time..so i decided to blog.. kinda..LOL...

to Mr 1312.
a few weeks ago you confessed.. i gotta say, i was shocked that you never gave up.. not just that but also, you took everything to a next level.. a.k.a DRAMA!!  we were great friends before..why would you wanna break that? putting us in a relationship when it was one sided ain't really what you wanted either right?
but please, you can;t expect me to like you when i already like someone else...i need some time away from you...please! i have enough to think i don;t want more to be added! and you know it! i trusted you enough to tell you what i'm going through...but can't you understand? you might be a year older than me, but that doesn't actually make you boss of everything you know..PLEASE! i just want to be friends..not listing you in the friend zone or anything if that's what you're afraid of...i just wish you never asked that...we were once so close together... all that hasn't changed! you changed! i tried! i really did! but please!! urgghh!!!
i thought you meant what you sad, heh, you'd think a girl would learn!




INSOMNIA
having insomnia for a month now, couldn't sleep at night... feel like a walking corpse! shoot this! i just want to go to bed is that so hard?! but on the bright side... Matthew 11:28 "come to me all ye who are weary and burdened and i will give you rest" it worked, prayer is the key to every spiritual warfare... i'm still going through some now...losing hope in life...but i have faith, He's gonna be the one to change it! thanks to a certain someone that reminded me that :) thanks Bro! you were there when i needed someone to be... thanks! but still srry that you got bored..and don;t tell me you haven't..don't tell me it ain't true when it obviously is..i'm 15, an adolescent, not a kid...i can think.. and i act happy,
but not behind every smiley face is real happiness, you taught me that too didn't you?

a promise

don't give me promises you can't keep,
iron on the outside,
flesh and blood on the inside,
no matter what,
a heart is a heart,
you break it,
no way you're fixing it..


fresh blood, 
as red as a rose,
dripping,
drop by drop,
and 1 drop is all it takes,
where sins are forgiven.
heavens are torn.
sinners used to be trapped between hell and heaven.
and God opened a gate to us.


God gave me a heart,
but he didn't give you the permission to break it.
not handing it to you.
forever and always.
let it be a lesson.
where everything you know has fallen apart,
and you can't trust anyone.
trust God, for He is the only one