stand strong in our promise. please!

do you remember the first time we talked?

we still do

but it's something more.

the second i found

that i never had you

the way i wanted to

heartbreaks

confusion

depression

and finally acceptance.

this is enough

our promise. 

thank you for keeping that promise.

you're great.

you're great.

for crying for me.

over something so small

it's not everything.

my life's not over

things like this come and go

but how i wish it doesn't

things haven't started,

but it already feels like the end has come.

i'm stupid,

reckless,

useless,

but faith in God has brought you to me.

i thank God for this.

i believe

as time flies by

i will

one day

find the courage.

to confess

to accept failure.

don't think bout me

cause i cannot bear

to see you hurt

over someone 

like me

that is so reckless.

stand strong.

to your future partner,

you found a great guy.

treasure him, 

because God has blessed you

with this Mr. Right.

he has helped me

but he will too

go through the same thing

with you

forever and always.

last thing to you.

i will not make a move, 

i will stand my ground.

if you love me the way i love you.

then in time God will bring us together.

by then, 

i will try

to keep you happy.

the way you've kept me happy

all the texts,

i've kept

all the words,

i remembered.

all the care,

i treasure it.

thank you. 

i love you. 

like a kid who loves her brother.

and i will continue to love you

just like this

not a thing more or less.

the more i do,

the more i hurt,

but the less i do

the less i feel.

thank you for everything.

please smile

cause you're cute that way.

smile widely,

you're cuter that way.

do your thing, 

which made me fall for you.

thank you so much.

for giving me the experience 

i never thought possible to happen.

to feel again, 

and to feel like i'm loved, 

by something physical,

and out of the supernatural

stay strong in the Lord, as you told me to.

i know

we're not possible,

and try i will not.

if we were meant to be something more.

then make your move. 

cause i'm lost in this.

you pulled me out of it.

when nobody else could.

they all left me

in the dark

lonely

depressed

sad

cried filled my nights.

but since you came in,

you pulled me into the light of the Lord.

i realised alot.

thanks to other friends too, who's been there for me with you.

in the midst of darkness.

you gave me your hand

as a friendly gesture.

i shouldn't think too much of it.

but is it too much to hope for more?

i'll stop all this now. 

cause it's useless typing all these.

when you know it's impossibe for it happen.

but i will stay strong.

as i have through the years without you.

not back in the darkness.

but in the light with you.

you've helped alot.

thanks for keeping up to your promise.

now smile,

stay strong,

and one day you can say,

you've forgotten.

thanks for the promise.

if we meet in the same way one day.

i will have the courage

to say it out loud.

thanks for keeping up to our promise,

please put a smile on that face,

cause i can't bear to see you cry.

for me even.

as much as i don't deserve this.

i will stand strong too.

for God. 

for myself.

i will put a smile on my face, and tell you

i'm fine.

and mean it one day.

please put a smile on that cute face of yours.

cause i can't bear to see you cry like this.

this is our promise.

the promise we made

through the whispers of the night.

i love you, take care.

may God bless you through your life. 

:)