AWFUL :(

OHIO!! and again, i came to a conclusion that no matter how hard you try to push away the people who actually care, it's just darn useless cause they won't budge..Bry, you've proven me wrong..once again...shoo-in you away ain't working..YES I GET THAT NOW! LOL!! haha, right....

everything that happened for the past week...i can say i've had enough of it - - what happened at home... trial exams, and dang i'm sick now! i got the flu again!!! NNOOOO!!!! can't breathe!! urgh! DDAAAYUUMM!!! my throat!!! DARN IT~!!! feeling awful....it feels like a ton of weight dropping on my shoulders at the same time :( ain't happy bout it!! dang this!! URGH!

and btw, if you want me dead so badly you can always kick me out and lemme starve, but take this, God will open a way... and he's your son for goodness sake! you hate me that much i can get it! but cummon! treat your son how deserved to be treated! after what happened...David Liew, i'm proud of ya :) but please don't take the risk again, it tore my heart apart when i heard what you say..but i'm happy and i'm proud of you :) jie is really proud of you bro :) 

cheesy words coming from my mouth ..WOAH...EWWW...but really...at least what i did didn't go to waste =DD BWUAHAHAH!!! well, now, i'm probably half dead...since you don't really care..you can leave me like this! because i've had enough to take with you! i can't take this anymore!  can't believe i did what i never to let history repeat itself..but NO! because of you, i broke my record! i broke my record and let history repeat itself! you'd think a girl would learn after her first or second experience, but still... the scars you left are too deep to forget... never ever gonna forget what you did...never....forgiveness, lemme try... you say you want forgiveness from us, but you are doing everything i can't forget...i can't forget! I JUST CAN'T!!!!!! 

i'll do everything to protect my brother..i will! i swear!